MY LAST LOVE

To : Wendy Lim Shi Yun <3 i="">

Thank you for your support. My blog has been deserted for years.
The posts are rather emo-ish and childish. So yeah. Dont laugh ! 
I LOVE YOU ! MUACKS ! <3 i="">

Helpless

Why am i always in this situation?

My heart is bleeding..

It's hurt yet again..

Every now and then crying out to her name.

The state i am in now...

Its terrible..

Its bad..

I'm in enough shit myself alr..

Yet i'm thrown into a r/s jail...

I needa get out of here...

I needa get free from this struggle..

But how long more?

I simply jus want you back..

You were right..

I'v came to rely on you heavily..

Shit..

Korea hopefully this may..

Loads of saving ups to be done..

Recruiting people for the korea trip..

Anyone interested may feel free to let me know..

It'll be awesome !

back from holidays..

now the starting of 2 years of regimental police life..

loads of frens says they are having fun and loving it in there..

guess i'v gotta go experience it for myself...

was having dinner with mum at hub when i bump into dason and co.

they mentioned seeing alot of sandrina in amk..

for a moment i couldn't regco that name..

then i remembered..

that girl..

yeah..

memories started flowing back but then hey..

didn't i benefited so much from the breakup?

look at the life i'm having now..

it's awesome..

dun need no girl to burden me..

time to pack..

fcuk.. clementi..

for the next 6 weeks..

oh gosh..

back from thailand..

its quite boring..

considered myself flushing 720 bucks down the bowl..

but still there are moments of fun and satisfaction..

next stop malaysia...

hope it'll be better..

u finally made me understood something,

something i could never have understood while i was with you..

love did not exsist..

its all jus fantasys all these long..

it's time to start loving myself..

Even if the sky is falling down down down...

Awesome song yeaa?

Personal Favourite since it came out on air..

Esp at the clubs..

Would love to get this song out to her..

But wad are my chances?

hahas..

Wooo.. The rain's stopped..

Time to go fishing..

Hopefully it will be my first yet not last time. =)

Life in Tekong is coming to an end for me..

POP-ing on the 9th Dec..

Will be doing quite abit of travelling after graduating..

First stop.. Bangkok for 5 days..

Then KL for 4 days..

Can't wait man... ;)

I thought you were who you are trying to portrait yourself as..

Yet.. i was wrong..

Trying so hard to maintain that "close to impossible" fren-ship..

Trying so hard t get back into your good terms...

Now i know..

All you cared was yourself..

I'll fuck off from now on..

Rejoice all you want..

You'r hopeless in everyone's eyes..

Jus got back from field camp..

It's tough i swear and we get fucked almost every single day..

And most of the time i dun even know why we deserve it..

But i know eventually it is for our own good..

I believe these 6 days out in the wild,

have bonded many of us..

It also showed the true colours of many..

Good or bad, we are from 1 section, the same platoon..

We fight, sweat, endured hell together..

And we taste joy, satisfactory and success together..

Its one of the toughest experience i'v ever had..

But its also one of the best of the many i will have..

I'm jus relieved we all pulled thru these..

Now wad awaits us is jus merely SOC, IPPT and SIT Test..

I believe we'll get stronger physiclly, mentally and spiritually..

Kinda random but, combat ration taste like crap after the third day..

Had biscuits and water for all 3 meals for the last 3 days..

AND I HAVEN SHOWERED FOR 6 DAYS !!

HAHAS..

Hope i have lost a couple of kgs though...

Laughs.

Alright...

Happy halloween people !!

5 weeks to POP !!!

Can't wait..

Can't imagine how fast time flies..

One moment i was emo-ing over a broken heart,

Now it's already 8 weeks into BMT..

No photos to post ppl..

Sorry for the boring wordy posts..

Bare with it yeah?

=D

Jus today, i heard it from the 13th person,

That she looks like thrash now..

And as usual, the question is wad happened to her?

I dunno.. I have no ans to that..

Maybe that's who she actually is..

Maybe all that i knew before,

was jus a girl putting on a strong front..

I felt totally lost..

Totally...

I like to make myself believe that she's the one for me~

Extended MC till friday..

Anyway..

Booking in on Sat afternoon ,

cuz there is range on Sunday,

and we gotta prepare for it..

Body's still feeling weak..

No sign of a speedy recovery..

Pray for me ppl.. =/

Still coughing very badly..

Can barely talk..

Now i know how it feels like when u'r all alone..

With no one showering you with love and care..

In this plauged with lies world, nothing is what it seems.

I'm so fucking sick..

And i'm sick at the wrong time again..

Fucked..

Missed my third IPPT..

Confined at home for 3 days..

=/

It's been too long..

I'v totally forgotten how to love..

And wad it feels like to be loved..

Love lights more fire then hate extingushes.

Feels disconncted to the outside world..

Everyday in tekong..

Life's a routine..

Its boring yet it does not turn me off a single bit..

Booking out..

Walking along the brigde to the fast-craft..

The coasta-line nva fails to make a impact in me..

How nice would it be to be able to..

Hold her hand and take a stroll as the waves crashes in..

If only..

Laughs..

Nah.. Not possible..

Not in this life-time at least..

Heading out now..

Ciaos~

It breaks my heart,
Tears me apart.
But its a painful truth.
A truth i gotta accept.
But I know even w/o you.
Life will be great.
I gotta feeling.
That everynight's gonna be a good night.

Life's a cycle..
It goes round and round..
It's a blink of an eye before you are back to where you were standing before.
Period.

Life changing experience..
If its one place i need to escape from all my troubles..
It's Tekong.

Confinement week !

I'm out during confinement week..

But jus for a while..

Jus got home to put my barang barangs..

Washing them now and hoepfully can get them blew dry within 1 hr..

Going for my medical review actually..

That's why i can book out..

Anyway..

Shouldn't be a problem lah..

Already chionging in camp now..

Jus finished 2 3km route marches this week..

Now i know how fucked i am..

Only gear-ed up with SOB..

Its alr fucking tiring..

Imagine field pack.

LOL..

My buddies in camp are really awesome ppl now..

Crap alot all the fucking time..

MORE PAIN AND JOY TO COME !!!

Your left, my left, our left right.

Jaguar !!

Left right,

Platoon 2 !!

Left right,

Warriors !!

Sometimes, i lay in my bed..

Brain is fucked,

Physically screwed,

Mentally tired..

But still thoughts of her never fails to not haunt..

The happy memories jus won't go away..

Took a peek into her blog and she seems so happy..

I'm jus glad wad happened happen..