Life is short~

Life is short.. The journey of life may seems long.. but its short.. indeed.. i realised this the hard way.. Well its still early for me.. I'm only 19.. Wad can u expect from me.. Immaturity has been tagging along with me for the past 18yrs.. Now at 19, finally setting my sights far.. I'v lost a battle.. Looking at my sister, i could only cover my face in shame and ponder on why i didn't treassure the opportunities presented to me.. Looking at how much fun and enjoyment she is having now.. Looking at desmond, whose currently in taiwan doing attachment in a local Uni.. Looking into the mirror.. I see a loser.. A loser with no itergrity.. No future.. No hope.. No way out of this shity life.. Wasted 19 yrs already.. I can't go on like this forever.. I needa be somebody.. I needa be something.. I needa to sercure a future for myself.. waking up from the "sian tian hou ku" life... It has not only gotten me nowhere.. But also screwed up my life.. Secondary skol screwed up.. Poly, on the verge of repeating history.. Do i wan to see that happen? dO I have the ability to change my fate.. Do i? It all lies with GOD now.. My life is in ur hands.. I wanna be successful.. but staying here in this tiny room , saying wanting to be successful dun get u nowhere.. U got to prove it with actions.. Haix.. Encouraging myself seems jus a excuse to make myself feel better.. Fcuk it.. Alirght.. now's the holidays.. Results will be out in 8 day's time... And i'll be gone in 9.. Hope i can really enjoy my trip this time round.. No bad results to haunt me everynight.. No tots of her to emo myself.. Jus me jon chua.. Sounds gay though.. But his my bestest fren.. I thank god for him.. =) My life has been going up and down.. Its time for one way traffic.. Which way it will be.. Will be my call.. I dun wanna disappoint my parents, my frens and those who hv been out there lending me a helping hand.. Now.. I jus wanna play hard.. studying will come.. when skol restarts in less then 7weeks time.. Bowling is wad i wanna concentrate on.. I wanna bowl my way out of failures.. Bowl for success.. Hopefully i can win something at warrens( the club i bowl for)... This yr.. we started strongly.. Though i haven got a chance to bowl yet.. Was suppose to be bowling the week after next. but going to hk and taiwan means my turn to bowl will have to wait... Its alright.. We got 9 points of out 10 in two fixtures.. That is a awesome result for us.. And the thing is our strong bowlers haven even bowled yet.. Indeed the young ones have surprised us all by storming to the peak of the pack.. Well done guys.. Bowling is my passion.. I love it more then anything else.. Well.. There's someone still i love more then bowling.. bUt it doesn't matter anymore i think.. She's given up on me totally.. It kills to admit that truth but it has happened and its happening rite now.. Obviously she's choosen him over me.. Well.. I can take it to the chin.. No problem.. Starting of another new chapter follows the ending on one... In this new chapt.. i wish for only satisfaction and happiness.. And of cuz.. Best if i could meet someone who really suits me... Oh yeah.. I jus bought a new bowling ball !!! Prime Zone !!! Costed me about S$330.. And tried it out during training today.. Reaction was strong at the back.. Something i needed for a long time.. Hahahas... The finger holes are abit too tight though.. Injured my fingers... =( Gonna get it changed tml at CSC bukit batok.. Hmmm... Alright !!! Write till here.. Erm.. Appreciates it if u tag if u have been to my blog.. =) tHe music is abit emo.. but i like it.. Cuz its so me.. Hahas.. Alright.. ciAo..