Confinement week !

I'm out during confinement week..

But jus for a while..

Jus got home to put my barang barangs..

Washing them now and hoepfully can get them blew dry within 1 hr..

Going for my medical review actually..

That's why i can book out..

Anyway..

Shouldn't be a problem lah..

Already chionging in camp now..

Jus finished 2 3km route marches this week..

Now i know how fucked i am..

Only gear-ed up with SOB..

Its alr fucking tiring..

Imagine field pack.

LOL..

My buddies in camp are really awesome ppl now..

Crap alot all the fucking time..

MORE PAIN AND JOY TO COME !!!

Your left, my left, our left right.

Jaguar !!

Left right,

Platoon 2 !!

Left right,

Warriors !!

Sometimes, i lay in my bed..

Brain is fucked,

Physically screwed,

Mentally tired..

But still thoughts of her never fails to not haunt..

The happy memories jus won't go away..

Took a peek into her blog and she seems so happy..

I'm jus glad wad happened happen..

First Book Out !

First book out of my Tekong Life..

Had fun in camp..

And i'm glad that everyone in my section is nice..

Btw I'm in Jaguar Coy.

Plat 2 , sect 2.

Its gonna be the best platoon and Company again..

Training everyday..

A little tough but getting used to it..

Love the tan i'm getting from the sun there..

Oh a highlight..

I fired live-rounds at the shooting range..

Kinda cool stuff..

Aiming for top marksman..

Hopefully can get into OCS...

Jus returned from Des's chalet..

Damn shagged..

Heading to bed now..

Miss my bed and air-con so much...

Hahas..

Ciao !

Letting go..

Hey people who acutally still reads my blog..

Its now open to all once again..

I'm sorry i had to shut it down for a period..

I had to..

And during the meantime,

I took time off anything else that keeps me busy..

And evaluated my life..

The purpose and goals of living in this damned world..

Life's not always a smoothe sailing..

Up and downs are compulsary..

From those, i'v learn how to treasure life..

Learn how to love my life..

And most importantly lead a life..

Which not only benefits myself..

But people whom cared for me or I cared for..

Letting Sand go..

Getting her to disappear from my mind..

It was tough..

Nothing is easy when love is involved..

Nothing..

I still dream about her every single night..

They were beautiful dreams..

But the truth is..

They are nightmares in disguise..

So why STILL suffer when i'm single now..

I'v alr suffered a hell lot when i was with her..

So since there's something in life which i'm not happy about..

GET RID OF IT I MUST..

Anyway..

It hurts so much more..

To remain as frens after a r/s...

Knowing that..

Deep inside your heart..

You still love her..

Yet she can't be yours..

And to watch her become other's..

It's like stabbing your heart a million times..

That pain was i guess, too much to take..

Rather be un-aquinted then fren..

So why do i wan her back as a fren now..

Contradicting ain't I..

I believe it's because i may have stopped loving her..

The same thing with norine..

But this time it was, jus I thought..

She used a fake bf to screw me over..

So now if I see that fuck face out there..

Dun think i'll ever forgets how he looks..

I'm gonna end his career..

I'm fucking gonna do him in..

Humiliating me on msn?

Who the fuck does he think he is to actually lecture me..

Opps..

OLD me coming back..

NAhhh...

Forget it..

I dun deal with childish people..

People who have nothing better to do..

Other then FUCK ard with other ppl's r/s..

And there's no such thing as "if only" after a break up..

Cuz normally couples would be like,

"If only u had been this, or that.. Things won't be like this."

Its totally nonsense..

If only can stretch back a long way to...

Before we even knew each other?

Or even to before we are born..

So if your ex tells you..

"If only you are..."

Cut her or him short and say fuck off..

That is the most appropriate thing to do..

Oh well.. Enough said..

I wish her the best for everything she does now..

The show is over..

I no longer need to act anymore..

Getting her to hate me for life..

And to pull the plug and cut off all ties..

It's all achieved..

I knew i won't be able to do it...

Knowing myself.. my capabilities..

There's NO WAY i can forget her on my own..

So resorting to hatred..

Its the only way..

I'm still glad things turned out this way..

She no longer needs to cry to sleep every night..

Which i dun even know how much truth there is in that..

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Jus got home from Zouk..

Many bros ps-ed me..

But me, i'm never short of brothers..

Of cuz..

I had fun with the remaining ppl who came..

Thanks all for giving me this fantastic farewell..

Endding it with a loud bang !!

Sure u guys did...

Tmr is my last day in singapore..

Will be moving to tekong for 13 weeks..

Because i cbf to take NAFA..

I had to serve extra 4 weeks...

lol..

Anyway.. Jus some requests i have..

Nice bunkies...

And commanding officers pls..

=)

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Shi min

I hope by the time i get out of tekong..

You'll be a happy girl again..

All the best..

=)

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All my frens and relatives

I'll take care of my wound..

Dun worry..

I'll chiong all the way as promised..

And Dun worry..

NO Detention Barracks FOR ME AS WELL...

hahas..

Ciao~

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Ben said i'm more or less getting intn his coy..

Well.. dunno how thing's gonna turn out..

But hopefully well..

6 more days..

Anyway..

Last night went out with seany boy..

Went to cine to catch Final Destination 4...

It was gross..

Seriously..

I was munching on my hot dog..

when that lady's head turned into Minced meat..

LOL..

3-D wasn't really a great experience after all..

The back of my ears hurt..

My eye's like gonna tear any moment..

So after the movie..

Went out for a spin in his ride..

Went ard changi's famous OCH...

there was only the 2 of us.

So we didn't want o go in explour on our own..

The feeling when passing by it was alr erie..

And when he shot up his high beam..

It was worst.

Could see the building's exterior and stuff..

Still horrible feeling..

Then drove back to his place and crash over..

Woke up the next morning..

Headed to town for a walk and little shopping..

Went to ION..

It's not that complicated a building though..

Its huge but could regconise the way everyone after walking 2 rounds..

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Off the record..

Went we drove to the east from town..

I saw the signboard read "Bedok"

This word has been haunting me alot..

It reminds me of painful memories..

Very sweet but painful..

The way things ended and then got from bad to worst..

It was so bad to be reminded of..

And now someone whom i rmb once told me,

that staying low-profile is the thing..

Yet..

Zooomm..

Everywhere's pictures of her..

I MISS YOU.

This is so embarressing..

Holy Shitt..

Alright..

Last weekend outside..

Clubbing at Powerhouse tonight..

ciao...

Sticking up the prawns..

Hahas..

Went prawning with conray..

Caught a total of 22 prawns each..

Was worth the money..

I mean the fun..

And BBQing was great..

The prawns tasted good..

But jus a little worried..

Was unsure if it maybe leave a scar permanently on my surgery wound..

7 Days to tekong..

I'm excited Baby..

I'm so gonna miss youu when i enlist..

=(

I'v decided wad's best for the both of us..

I had enough..

I'm done hurting her..

This is where it ends..

I'm closing down this blog..

The link of my previous blog is linked..

Those curious can go take a look..

It's not a beautiful a blog as it used to be..

But the memories are all there..

Every single one of them..

Good-bye..

Great..

All she did was whine at me on the phone for less then 5mins..

And i gave in..

Totally..

Fuck..

WAD A PUSSY I AM !!!

Can't I get anything done right??

Fuck..!

Saying the truth about everything..

Saying them out loud and public..

Enables me to calm down..

he hatred disappeared for a second when she called..

And they evaporated totally when she spoke to me..

I melt at every single bit of non-hostile act she shows..

But hatred grows when that xl-ness of her's came back..

Forget it..

When i chose this path..

I knew exactly how things would turn out and I was right..

I regretted doing so many things but so wad..

So wad IF i regretted..

Its not gonna change anything..

Well..

If its not for the nights i spend time talking to a someone..

I won't have thought about her..

And maybe things wouldn't get out of hand..

Now she's whrecked..

Am i happy?

Nope..

Why not?

Cuz i still fucking love her

And now i'm hating myself for doing all those shit..

Well.. all i can say is sorry..

I know sorry won't help,

or do any good..

But still sorry..

Why do i still love her?
Why do i still care wad she thinks?
Why??
If she can move on so easily..
Why can't I??
She's prolly alr gotten into another r/s..
And maybe she's out of it now..
I certainly hope my assumption is wrong..
But that's life..
People like that exist...
I'm really gonna say no to any r/s now..
Maybe a slight chance after NS...
I jus needa control myself...
Prevent myself from fallin for any girls now..
Cause i know right now..
It's not love..
It was so boring..
I hated doing things like going to her place..
Waste time in some pet shop..
I was so blinded...
All i hope for is jus pure innocent love..
Like when i was with Norine..
Oohh... days like those were hard to find anymore..
9 days of freedom !!!
Then it'll be hell..
I'm totally recovered from my surgery now..
I think i'm gonna ignore the light duties MC and go all out...
Gosh..
Anyway...
Shi Min !!!!
Self-control !!
You can do it..
I hope wad i told ya over the last 2 weeks help..
If ya need any shoulder..
Let me know..
I'll be there..
=D