Great..

All she did was whine at me on the phone for less then 5mins..

And i gave in..

Totally..

Fuck..

WAD A PUSSY I AM !!!

Can't I get anything done right??

Fuck..!

Saying the truth about everything..

Saying them out loud and public..

Enables me to calm down..

he hatred disappeared for a second when she called..

And they evaporated totally when she spoke to me..

I melt at every single bit of non-hostile act she shows..

But hatred grows when that xl-ness of her's came back..

Forget it..

When i chose this path..

I knew exactly how things would turn out and I was right..

I regretted doing so many things but so wad..

So wad IF i regretted..

Its not gonna change anything..

Well..

If its not for the nights i spend time talking to a someone..

I won't have thought about her..

And maybe things wouldn't get out of hand..

Now she's whrecked..

Am i happy?

Nope..

Why not?

Cuz i still fucking love her

And now i'm hating myself for doing all those shit..

Well.. all i can say is sorry..

I know sorry won't help,

or do any good..

But still sorry..