i'v found enough reasons to let go..

Emotionally it's hard..

but logically everyone in my shoe,

will jus let it go..

She is a must to let go..

She'll only bring more pain..

Now it's clear to me that i dun even wan her as a fren anymore..

Her doings and choice of words really blew me off...

I dun think there's any point..

Leopards dun change their spots..

Yes..

but whose the leopard we are talking about?

Things i'v found out...

Its jus super..

You dun need someone to love u...

U jus need attention..

and whom-ever its coming from..

U dun care..

u jus go...

and then i get the honour to hear u compare...

yES.. i got kicked ot from poly..

Yes.. i wasn't as hard working..

Yes.. i dun treat my family well..

yes i suck at being a bf...

It's all true..

So why pull the plug after 6mths?

Oh god.. this is killing..

Nvm... even with tears,

i will move on..

No matter how unwilling my legs wanna move..

no matter how heavy the heart is..

no matter how much i love you..

i jus wanna forget u..

And this is the last time u ppl gonna see me rant bout this..

Anyway..

This morning was really fucked up..

That's all i could say...

Doing things i didn't wan to..

saying things i dun mean..

But the only truth account that happened this morning,

was the sending her to sch part..

that was really wad i wanted to do willingly..

and i did..

the journey was unpleasant..

it was shit..

but i still took time to take a good look at her before disappearing from her life..

SHE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL...

although many disagree..

well.. wad can i say...

so.. after that.. 10am i was.. at tamp alone..

without sleeping for 1 day...

yet wasn't feeling tired at all until i reach my cousin's place..

i love you cousin.. really thanks for all the senses u knocked into me..

her place was really nice..

i love her balcony the most..

it's like the only balcony in earth i would not mind living in..

hahas.. its totally the right place to sit down for drinks, smoke, play a little music..

and admire the view...

If u'r wondering where's this super nice condo..

its call the esta..

near katong..

so at her place..

ate curry and fried rice..

then chatted while eating..

told her bout the morning..

then she went off to study..

i hope i didn't disturb her at all..

which i think i did..

so sorry !!!!!

Anyway, slacked till ard 1..

went to aston's which is near katong mall..

cousin was relectant to let me smoke..

i know she meant well for me..

cuz we both had asthma..

so its bad for my health and she's sensitive to the smell..

so i did wad a good cousin would do..

after lunch , cabbed home...

Then found out internet was not working..

so went to bed, slpt like 4hrs and i'm up alr..

Anyway...

i jus hope things will work out for me and [ ]..

though nothing concrete started yet but the foundation i believe was laid nicely..

so hahas.. its all down to me now...

k lah.. gina's coming over to mine's now..

blog another day..

oh yeah.. 4 days of work starting on thursday..

ard 200 plus for jus a couple of hours each day..

good money.. why not..

last but not least...

I found a reason to hate u...

and the reason is u...

ciaoz.