11th Aug

This is supposely the 7mths we knew each other..

Today marks the start of the 1 mth countdown to my enlistment..

It also marks the start of my new life..

Went out to meet Jon..

Acc-ed him to study at Macs..

A routine for us in the past when i was still in poly..

I brought a book along..

A fiction book written by Low Kay Hwa..

A true life story of a NYJC girl..

It was touching..

I had tears in my eyes as i was reading into the final chapter of the book..

Anyway.. I jus wanted to start over again..

I knew my mistakes..

I knew my short-comings.

I knew i had to change..

I knew it all..

But i jus could not execute it..

I took out all the things and gifts she bought for me..

The everlast top and the shirt she got me from taiwan..

The lollipops which i haven eaten..

The 2 bottles of perfume, Ferrari and BurBerry..

I took them out of my house..

And place them into the small thingy my grandma uses to burn stuff..

And i lit them on fire...

Purfume contains alcohol..

So it was not hard to get the fire started

And in matter of mins..

They were all gone..

Burnt and destroyed..

Of cuz i had to throw the bottles away..

It was sad..

But i had to move on..

Jon was with me when i wished her as the clock struck 12.10am..

And the next advise he gave me was to delete every possible way of contacts.

I couldn't do it back then when we jus broke up..

But i figured i can't back out now..

So her numbers were erased, Msn deleted..

Deleted the short-cut link in my favourites to her blog..

The photos and stuff were all gone by now..

It's gym tmr at Warrens..

Jon claimed i slimmed down..

Yes..

I went from 83kg to 76kg...

Not much.. But a good start at least..

Without any exercise..

"Its not how the world looks at you..

Its how you look at the world.."